A search for what self-love means to
me and how I experienced it in my life.
Have I found self-love? And how did I
get to it.This is in response to a
society where a lot is judged on what
you achieve and many people tell you
what is best for you.Also because I
missed a lot of things in my youth
and later came into conflict with this.
I preform in 5 different scenarios with
an object and a surrounding. In these
scenarios I portray my feelings and
struggles with this topic. These five
scenarios represent the best for me
what self-love has meant and means to me.
I never learned to express my feelings through words. Because of this I
discovered other forms of expressing myself. Like with the body through
dance. And later creating objects and space.
My work deals with sensitive topics that we find difficult to talk about.
With my images I make subjects tangible and I bring new insights and ideas.
This gives subjects a different impact in which we will understand each other
better. Through my work I research and question my own thoughts and feelings.
By showing it, I hope to take people along with me and show them that you
can express and feel the way you feel, you don’t have to hold yourself back
and remember how important it is to express yourself mentally and physically.
People are central to my work. Human conditions play an important role in this.
I examine both the physical and mental body. How do the mental conditions relate
to physical expressions, how does someone move under certain circumstances in
relation to objects or in a space. And what happens when body, object and space
change roles? The tension and forms that arise in this interaction appeal to me.
Due to my own dance background, I use myself as a performer. I do this because
I want to experience what I create myself, become part of the material, the
shape and the space. Sometimes I direct myself and sometimes I let myself be
guided by what happens during an research or a performance. I investigate the
human emotions / limitations which are close to myself, which I really feel in
my body, which are recognizable, but sometimes inexpressible. This keeps my
work raw and honest.
I start by imagining my own thoughts. I do this by sketching and bringing
together material, composition, color and shape. Pace is an important factor
in this. This is the groundwork for the translation into spatial. During the
creative process, I constantly test and question whether the physical work
matches my mental thoughts. This creates a constant development and discovery
of what I want to capture. My process is like a dance. Different work flows,
bring it to life, don’t stand still for too long and make new discoveries.
In the end I present my work in a live performance or a video. I find both
ways interesting. By means of video I can capture the performance at the
location that has the right interaction and impact for the imagery to me.
In a live performance I can involve the spectator more, respond to what is
happening around me and there is room for improvisation.